[ Ah, right. Dokja had needed Ways of Survival to be with him, as selfish as that had been. It was the only way he could make the minutes, days, weeks, years bearable. As long as he was reading, he was fine.
But even that hadn't been enough.
As he rests his chin against the top of her head, he stares down at his scarred hands and remembers the way he'd pressed his fingers to the glass of that subway train in an effort to speed up the process of his decay. He had just been a shell of himself, then, kind of like he is now, all restless energy and a darkness steeped into his gaze that he can't seem to pull himself out of. It's why he had cornered a child here in a weak attempt to reach his desired ending, only for things to have turned out in this way instead.
If he really had died that day in the Veneran church garden, he wouldn't have seen Sooyoung here today.
... Or learned about the group regression. ]
What?
[ Dokja draws back, a look of shock on his face as he pulls away to stare down at Sooyoung. He... had considered it. Not a group regression but considered them coming up with ideas to rescue him, but not like this. To go to such a length... ]
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But even that hadn't been enough.
As he rests his chin against the top of her head, he stares down at his scarred hands and remembers the way he'd pressed his fingers to the glass of that subway train in an effort to speed up the process of his decay. He had just been a shell of himself, then, kind of like he is now, all restless energy and a darkness steeped into his gaze that he can't seem to pull himself out of. It's why he had cornered a child here in a weak attempt to reach his desired ending, only for things to have turned out in this way instead.
If he really had died that day in the Veneran church garden, he wouldn't have seen Sooyoung here today.
... Or learned about the group regression. ]
What?
[ Dokja draws back, a look of shock on his face as he pulls away to stare down at Sooyoung. He... had considered it. Not a group regression but considered them coming up with ideas to rescue him, but not like this. To go to such a length... ]
Why would you do that?