Mmm...

[Like everything was falling apart. That was an accurate enough description for it. At the same time... it hadn't felt wrong, in a certain way. Confusing, yes, disorienting, yes, but... What passed as her life had been falling apart for five years time, and even then... She'd enjoyed it so much. Being able to feel it and actually mourn it, being able to struggle against it, to hide and fight and care what the outcome was beyond just surviving...

It had been easy for her, to drift through the fragments. It had felt strangely easy to walk from the lure of shadows towards the light. It almost made her think she was dying, that the talk of the light at the end of the tunnel might be real and not just brain synapses firing upon death...

But no. She's alive now, isn't she... ? Her eyes turn softer. More distant. Remembering.]

... I did. I thought I was dying... but I didn't do that, either... It was warm, and full... comforting, and just... peaceful...

[She doesn't know if she has the words to do it justice, though she tries, swaying slightly as her broken fingers splay over the collar of her robe. But something Ciel says...]

Did you not... ?