her hand trembles, and the book falls flat on its spine, pages fluttering.
'the one they'd been looking for'
'the one she wanted to see'
she'd imagined this moment so many times. during those weeks of planning, then between scenarios, brief moments where sooyoung would stare at a blank page, glance at the screen of her phone. "things i'll do to dokja when i see his stupid face again" with "kick his ass" underlined thrice, because the idea of failing was absolutely unthinkable.
and then she had. but now he's here. without the world, without the rest of their group to welcome him. only her and yoo joonghyuk, who sooyoung's already lost somehow along the way. these are really the worst circumstances.
and yet.
she can't deny the lightness in her heart. she can't deny that the smallest part of her is still happy to see him, even though she shouldn't be -- she doesn't have the right to be. she wanted to go back, needled everyone else into going back with her, and now the world's destroyed and they're all gone but dokja -- dokja is still here -- he's...]
You crazy idiot. You absolute moron. You -- you... [she grabs his wrist more tightly as she presses her arm across her face, her words muffled]
...Tell me why. Was it because of the world? Would it have stopped existing?
[she's had her theories. she's not sure why she's asking when she knows they're right.]
NO!!!
'the one who lied to them yet again'
her hand trembles, and the book falls flat on its spine, pages fluttering.
'the one they'd been looking for'
'the one she wanted to see'
she'd imagined this moment so many times. during those weeks of planning, then between scenarios, brief moments where sooyoung would stare at a blank page, glance at the screen of her phone. "things i'll do to dokja when i see his stupid face again" with "kick his ass" underlined thrice, because the idea of failing was absolutely unthinkable.
and then she had. but now he's here. without the world, without the rest of their group to welcome him. only her and yoo joonghyuk, who sooyoung's already lost somehow along the way. these are really the worst circumstances.
and yet.
she can't deny the lightness in her heart. she can't deny that the smallest part of her is still happy to see him, even though she shouldn't be -- she doesn't have the right to be. she wanted to go back, needled everyone else into going back with her, and now the world's destroyed and they're all gone but dokja -- dokja is still here -- he's...]
You crazy idiot. You absolute moron. You -- you... [she grabs his wrist more tightly as she presses her arm across her face, her words muffled]
...Tell me why. Was it because of the world? Would it have stopped existing?
[she's had her theories. she's not sure why she's asking when she knows they're right.]