[Yeah. That feels like honesty.]

Better an old pain than an unfamiliar one. I understand.

[Take the lashes one knows already, the scar tissue will defer the pain. The new hope and promises of light could just mean disappointment in a different way.]

I am indecisive, too. It should be a clear choice, but...

There is vulnerability in the light, isn't there? Light cast on every flaw for all to see. The possibility of rejection.

[And despite that, Viktor doesn't find himself shying away from it.]