[ his hand is big. way bigger than hers. when's the last time anyone held it and swallowed it up this way? her dad? Vander?
thinking about that should make her hurt, but it doesn't. it just makes her... angry. angry, and resigned. people always leave. people abandon you, betray you. being hurt isn't an acceptable consequence; it leaves you vulnerable to more hurt. right? he gets it?
he definitely gets it. is that why he's looking at her like that? ]
But... I don't just want it to stop.
[ if he gets it--
whatever had been in her eyes before is slowly morphing into something else. the vulnerability is evolving into a low burn, something that is quickly consuming whatever had been building there and using it as kindling to feed the flames.
if he really gets it, then she'll know. if she tells him - she'll get her answer either way. anyone else - anyone else but Silco, and she knows what kind of response she'd get. what she should be expecting.
but somehow... somehow, with this one... ]
I want to make them stop.
[ she hates them. 'them;' it doesn't matter who, maybe. she hates them and she wants them to suffer and she wants to be there when they do. she wants to be the one to do it. oh, does she want that so god damn bad-- ]
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thinking about that should make her hurt, but it doesn't. it just makes her... angry. angry, and resigned. people always leave. people abandon you, betray you. being hurt isn't an acceptable consequence; it leaves you vulnerable to more hurt. right? he gets it?
he definitely gets it. is that why he's looking at her like that? ]
But... I don't just want it to stop.
[ if he gets it--
whatever had been in her eyes before is slowly morphing into something else. the vulnerability is evolving into a low burn, something that is quickly consuming whatever had been building there and using it as kindling to feed the flames.
if he really gets it, then she'll know. if she tells him - she'll get her answer either way. anyone else - anyone else but Silco, and she knows what kind of response she'd get. what she should be expecting.
but somehow... somehow, with this one... ]
I want to make them stop.
[ she hates them. 'them;' it doesn't matter who, maybe. she hates them and she wants them to suffer and she wants to be there when they do. she wants to be the one to do it. oh, does she want that so god damn bad-- ]
And I want them to know it was me.