Somehow, I feel like you're the type that mourn even an idiot's death.

[ Because he isn't denying that what he's doing is foolish. ]

But I can't see any other way of finding what I'm looking for here. I was already prepared for it back home... it'd be stupid not to keep going forward. [ Perhaps, that is what his Infected state has done to him. Every Infected have their own psychosis, especially when they're as sick as he is. How funny -- he's actually thinking about these things even as he made his decision. ]

I'll give you a smile if I find the answer that I'm looking for -- the reason for this life of mine.